Like a message in a bottle thrown out at sea, I scribble my thoughts to a man that no longer exists. Where is he, the man I fell so in love with? Where did he go? Why did he leave me? How did it happen?
Carl you got lost. Please come back to me. Find your way back home.
You are the first thing I see when I open my eyes and the last when I lay at the end of the day. I see you but you are no longer there. Your flesh remains the same but your heart is changed.
What was once a romantic, kind, thoughtful and gentle man now exists a hard, cruel, abusive and indifferent man who does not care. Certainly, we like all others, have challenges but our story is different, for you have gone. And so it is. Day by day, minute by minute I struggle to hang on in hopes that the man I fell in love with comes back to me but I am loosing my grip and falling. The man who others used to say, "God he loves you, look how he looks at you, he just wants to make you happy, he can't stop touching you" now whisper "what is he doing to you, how can he say such things, what is wrong with him".
My wish: before this relationship dies and can no longer be saved, I pray that you come back.
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