HE LOVES ME!

In his words...

A new dawn is on the horizon and my life, as I have know it, is going to go through an epic change. My outlook, and inward look, on life and people in general, will bring such an upheaval of emotions on to me, the likes of which I would never for the rest of my life time believe I would ever see again. A wonderful person has entered my life. One of caring, nurturing, loving , open and honest passion for all life. Most important to me is that now it is all directed toward me. This person truly loves "me" with all her heart and passion. Her Name is Francine. I call her "Francolicious". The unsurety of my self, has always been something that haunts my thoughts since childhood. But the short amount of time that has passed for us to get to know fully each other, that unsurety is fading. She is so understanding that even if I do fail at something it isn't a failure, at least I did something. That gives me encouragement to try once again to succeed. There are way too many things for me to say, "what about this woman" that I love, all at one time. Although the time we have know each other has been short, there is so much more to know and experience with and about her. I do not see my life from this point on being like it was. Sorry for myself because I have never achieved much in my life but living and keeping one best friend. Withdrawn from contact with people except for work and friends, at times limited by my feelings. I used to be strong and free, able to do anything. But as I grew older those things didn't mean much to me any longer. I saw myself as being a recluse, a hermit, a very closed selfish person. I truly was beginning to hate life and just began waiting for the end. I do truly not believe in a God or Heaven/Hell. There are no Angels or Daemons. Spirits? Maybe. Some energy that our body released is some phenomenon that we don't understand yet but I don't believe it's religious. Religion was something I learned early in life but as a middle aged adult I don't believe it's a factor of the universe. The way we met was not unlike how many others have met, Through mutual friends. Friends are like that, always trying to get rid of you, lol. No, really, it's friends that help spread who we are, like how bees pollinate other flowers. I don't find it unusual that we "hit it off" right away, we are both nice people at heart. So it would figure we could converse rather well when we met. Well amazingly she called me! I didn't think our friends were moving our meeting along so quickly and figured I had a couple days to give her a call but she made the first move. Bold and courageous, that blew me away. We talked on the phone for almost two weeks, getting to know each other before finally meeting in person. Again, not unusual in today's world with dating services and personal adds, I believe we are just two of the right people to come together. Sole mates are two people that mesh together so well that they live and breath each other, and I believe Francine and I do that. Yes we have our differences but who doesn't? Those I think are what create the "mesh". As in a chain link, they are together and separate making one. I still have fears, maybe anxiety, of the future that lay head for me but I am very eager to see. Not like me at all, alone, but with Francine I see a bright shining star leading my sole into a area that has yet to be explored, and I go willingly and freely unable to resist the feelings of joy and harmony that overcome me every second. I wish to explore every feeling that Francine brings out and has in our future. Speaking of the future, what do I see? Well, truly? Marriage. I not only see it I feel it with every fiber of my being. Every molecule of my human life form. This woman is incredible, everything I want and need in a life partner. The one person we all look for in our lives to make us whole. I see adventure and exploration of feelings and thoughts becoming one. Time will slow down while we are together living and loving life as freely and passionately as two soles could together. I love this woman, this very special woman named Francine very very much. I would give my life for her but want every minute of what is left, to be with her. Carl A. Hill