Our Secret Wish...

It has been decades since I have allowed myself to dream, wish or pray for another baby until this weekend. I thought I buried that desire/regret deep in the hallows of my soul. It was I who wanted another child in my twenties and thirties and often cried about the fact that this wish would never come true. Little did I know that God/The Universe had other plans for me. A power bigger than me knew what I did not know. For It knew that another child in my broken marriage would have been more pain than I or another child could handle and It knew that my Carl was wishing the same wish and waiting for me. And so this weekend, my Somebody opened his heart and soul to me and announced his secret wish to have a child together with me. Although we traveled different paths, we both experienced the same lack and desires and met at this point in which we both embrace the idea of a little Carl and Francine in our lives. And so it is...we leave it up to God/The Universe to make the right decision for us. Either way, we will be happy together forever and will always have children and others in our lives.